The END GOAL is MASTERY

“You’ve mastered trying to master everyone else’s mastery, except yours”

Aray! Ang sakit ha!

Lakas Tama

This FB post by Nikki aka Nomad Finance Girl really struck me (Read it here: https://www.facebook.com/nomadfinancegirl/posts/2515394558727898?__tn__=K-R . We all know that MASTERY is the way to success, but what are we doing about it?

I know, I am 100% sure that the end goal is MASTERY (it’s even my facebook timeline cover for God’s sake), but what am I doing about it???

Well, I’m happy to report that last week, two weeks after Master Class and two weeks after my purge, I finally got to trade.

Road to Mastery

During the last week of Master Class, I was outside the country, travelling for work, but at the same time I was trading… I was force trading while I was stressed out with my work project… I was over trading without a plan while my hands were also full with my work project… That ultimately led to a disaster, I had to cut on losses on trades that I had zero idea about. It’s a similar feeling when you get so drunk and wake up the next morning without any recollection on what happened to you the night before… Thankfully, I was able to bounce back to reality and able to recognize this problem. I immediately purged my port…

One week after Master Class, I decided I should start anew, I followed an advice from Mentor Date Masamune that I should’ve followed a long time ago… I made a BIG DECISION TO START SMALL. I took my funds out of my port and kept a small amount as my capital to start over again…

Two weeks on, I still was not trading. I blanked out, I was not able to trade, I froze…  Now that I learned all about these setups, all plays suddenly appeared… But how do I trade all these setups? I was lost, I did not know where to start. I was paralyzed by fear…

On the last week of November, I composed myself, I convinced myself that I should do something about it. And the first thing I did was acknowledge my problem and reflect on it. I told my batch mates about it, I told my life partner about it, and I told my focus discussion group about it. I am lucky to have a strong support system, I received good advice from these people and also from Mentor Mesino that week. I am lucky to have a ZFT support group, the learning is continuous and the support is readily available when you need it.

November 29, 2018 I finally decided to move forward. I accepted to myself that I will fail a lot of times, I will struggle with my emotions, I will be in tough situations… But no matter what, I have to succeed… Because in our batch, ERUDITE, we all made a promise to make our Master Class batch a 100% success rate. And I must succeed for my family, my biggest WHY…

December 2, 2018 / Day 0     I started backtesting which I put in journals so I can acknowledge my mistakes and also writing the possible solutions. After this, I made may Watch List.

December 3, 2018 / Day 1     My port is finally alive 🙂 I still continued my back test. 

December 8, 2018 / Day 6     I Felt happy that I finally got to trade, and I followed the plan. This is the excerpt from my trading journal:

Day 6 A work in progress

I am still a work in progress, I think we all are, I think we will always be…

For now, I leave it here, I will FOCUS ON MASTERING MYSELF…

Until next time!

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